Oh my God!
I totally flipped my lid last night. I don't remember all of it, but most of it freaked me out. It was really scary!
Eventually my ex got me to calm down which was good, but now I feel like a total FUCKWIT for letting myself go that far in the first place.
Why couldn't I have kept my thoughts to myself? Or better yet, just left like I was originally going to...until I got comfy and snuggly and it was late and there's a whole lot of excuses I could put out there but I'm gonna stop.
I hate that I can't control what I feel. I hate that there is something in my LIFE that I can't control!
I have got to stop doing this stuff. It's not fair to him, or to me. All I'm doing is fucking myself up, and then blaming him for it because I love him.
Bad day.
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i think it's better to accept how you feel, rather than to try and suppress it.
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